Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Dependence leads to more dependence.
independence leads to more independence and eventually isolation at an extreme, but if one can attain a higher mental plane regarding independence one might be able to create some sort of medium that does well to satisfy a small part of the primal instinct but does well to do something else?
However if we do get to a presumed "higher level" there are some questions to ask:
What is our new purpose?
What now, becomes instinct?
Do normal human protocols and behavior still apply?
How do we now justify our actions? What are our actions geared towards? (question 1)
And the vague, Do we know any more about ourselves than we did previously?
I realize many more questions do apply to us, and I'll do my best to address more of them through my thinking.
Despite the incredibly esoteric introduction, I think that a majority of the population lives and thinks on a primal level. In animal behavior, we can see that animals need four basic things: Air, Water, Food, Shelter. However I would maintain that another large part of living, on an animalistic level, would be the desire to mate. This desire to mate develops animals as much more than creatures fighting to survive (to some extent). Rather, there is a very large world that erupts from the single desire of wanting to mate.
Upon writing that last clause, I've come to a realization that the way humans act the way they do, or at least one of the prime reasons humans are so different (in their behaviors, and maybe to some extent appearances) are not necessarily because of the environment (I'm referring to first world cultures), however they are so different because of the way they choose to interact with the opposite sex. There are several methods of interaction that can be seen between men and women, based on culture, age, and environment. I think that what I'd like to explore is the fact that we've created a complex culture based on an innate desire that inherently affects most of our actions, and what we can do to try to explore paths that would lead us to pursue a less innate desire to the extent that we've already pursued and innate primal desire. And also ask the question, is this even possible?
It would be beneficial for one to use the existence of another in order to forward their own cause, meaning that they have decided to do something great, or very difficult, to support or help someone else that they know. But the true test I think, is to do something beneficial for ones self, because of their own self. I find that becoming the reason for your own greatness is extremely difficult, and that's why we see so little of it in all parts of the earth. One can see several instances of greatness due to the fact of environmental features (necessity to get out of a dangerous place), also, due to parental figures "instilling" greatness in an individual by conditioning. Though it may seem that I am getting off track, its still apparent, that the higher mental plane, is not achieved by any of the individuals that have done something because of themselves, rather than features or people around them. An interesting question to investigate would be when one person begins to do something for themselves after they have left their own parental or environmental control. Another important thing to investigate would be whether or not these instances of greatness appear on a global scale. To be more clear, one could do something for themselves but not achieve as high as one who has been doing it for someone (or some other reason) else. I think the truly developed individual, who has reached the higher plane is one who has done something for themselves and achieved the highest echelon of greatness in their field, and continues to do so, and goes further whenever they approach their field.
It seems, from all of the above that it would be wisest to get in touch with those who have, by the terms I've defined, reached that upper echelon, and higher plane, however I can think of few who have achieved this. The only ones that come to mind (most likely because of my lack of knowledge regarding such people), is Michael Jordan, or Warren Buffet.
Friday, December 25, 2009
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Sunday, December 13, 2009
In the background: "Blue Eyes" - Cary Brothers.
I feel warm, uncomfortably numb. Useless. Been studying all day. Still wanting that one piece of me that's missing. Gave it some thought though, I'm not dying, in jail, or anything. I've really got nothing to worry about. Except for my education... I need a vacation. Finals is in full swing, and lucky for me I have so much yet to do its infuriating. I don't know if its because of the illness, but I've been depressed again. Slept for an incredible 13 hours last night for no reason. What do you do when life's kicking your ass?
I don't know. Keep plugging away, that's what the shiny optimist would say. You'll do great! Work hard! Yeah, okay, lets' do that!
I need a nap. Maybe caffeine? Lets try that option.
In other news, I leave back home for a week. Where I can come back to some possible familial stability. We'll see what happens, knowing how this week is going, I can look forward to a broken head due to finals. I don't understand how people can get by or justify themselves with average grades. I guess I should ask myself that question, I never prepare enough for the occasion at hand, and on the occasion that I do, I still get rocked. I don't know what this means, but it begs the question: Whats the point of studying?
Enter the Bi-Polar, the soft implication of yourself. Which side is right? Does it even matter? What does this have to do with becoming a doctor? Absolutely nothing, lets get that going. Here I come Standford Med. Its game time.